It’s a new year already! Heck the saying of “New year, new me”, it’s still the same old, shitty me 🙂 2017 has been eventful in that I have reached another milestone in life, but yet I don’t find it particularly memorable(probably gonna blame it on my dementia…).
Started the new year very happy and hopeful by celebrating it in Japan. Woohoo! It was so fun to be soaking in Japan’s new year atmosphere. I remember being a little sad when I had to return to Singapore as I missed the “carefree” life there(mainly because I am not a salaryman there).
Then came the final semester of school. Honestly, I could have just graduated without doing this semester, why am I paying more school fees to put myself through unnecessary torture? But somehow, I was glad to be able to learn things that interest me: all those low-level technical stuff from operating systems course and distributed thinking and optimization in big data course and parallel computing course. I am still so self-admiring whenever I think about my C code that uses bitmasking to store information about the playability of the surrounding squares in an Othello board in a compact manner.
And yea, with that I graduated and became a 社会人! Grad trip was my first time in Korea. Even though it was an all-guys trip, I still miss those days as I more or less forgot about all of life’s woes and crises.
Then came work. I remembered being very stressed about whether I can pass the probation period(the tasks were so tough I.M.O). Somehow I made it through and though almost all subsequent tasks were hard, they were interesting and I felt sense of achievement. I hope work would remain this interesting to me and I hope to become good soon so that I can get out of the noobie mode and enter the sibei zai laojiao mode 🙂 Work aside, I still feel empty on the inside. With barely any close friends I can talk on personal level, it feels like all I can look forward to going to office is to accomplish feats, nothing else: I have no life other than working and going home. Even had a few secret breakdowns as quarter-life crisis set in. Eventually, I got back into ‘actor’ mode and took the character of a character in a recent anime I watched as my own and moved on with life. Everyday felt like cos-ing as an anime character(in terms of character). Though it can be said I am trying to escape reality(typical pisces?), but it let me see everything in a slightly different light and things seem a bit happier when I don’t really care about anything.
The year ended decent I think(something happy happened). For the new year resolution, other than the longstanding relationship goals, I hope to improve on my financial literacy, position and freedom by being able to build up a small wealth by the end of the year. All the best to myself and a Happy New Year to all!
By the way, if you watched the new year’s fireworks, so are they round or flat? Hehe.